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Track 9: Party in the USA

Greetings Blogspace,

It feels like a lot is going on in my world right now. But as I take the time to think about it, its all good in the hood.

I'm working, going to class, finally go my MSTEM money so my finances are in the black, have a great boyfriend who, despite the distance, I get to see at least every other day due to fate or some stroke of genius on my part.

My mom and I are still on decent terms, my friends and I are as weel. Though I must admit, I'm sure I could do a better job of keeping up with them. Like I don't see lex as much as I probably could. This is due mostly to me choosing to see Mark over her. Gonna have to do a better job of managing, I presume.

I booked my flight to ATL at the end of the summer. Which is noteworthy due only to its superficial foreshadowing.

Had my first day of training to work with PTP (which means I'll have to be driving to Ann Arbor every day this week). I'm fairly excited about this job because I get to figure out how to lead a group of.... idk what to call them. I was going to call them 'kids' but we're only a year apart in age. I guess I'll just call them 'students.'

Whatever you call them, I'm excited to teach them all that I know about college thus far and to help them in their transition.

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is dealing with the kids who go to a different school or are in a different major. I'm sure I can handle them too, it would just be easier if the dynamic was more monotone.

I'm really worried that I need to make sure they see me as someone to talk to and also their facilitator.

We shall see how that goes, I guess.

I have physics tomorrow and we get back our exams, I really hope I did well, that would take a lot of pressure off. If not, next weeks exam may be tougher than I thought.

I guess that's all for now.

Adios!

Track 8: Flaws and All

not quite sure how organized this blog will turn out to be. You've been Warned.


I feel like I've been dealing with a lot lately.

For starters, my finances have be in the hole as of the pass couple of weeks, or months, I can't quite remember. I do know, however, that I've become terribly used to paying for things in quarters.

It just really hasn't been working out for me.

This lack of money has really affected how i view myself and my level of productivity this summer. Quite frankly, taking physics is costing me a lot of money. Not because the class is expensive, but because it takes up so much of my time that i cant work as much as I would like. which means I have to take jobs that are willing to work around that schedule, which are the lesser paying jobs.

But I guess I can't complain. Like I've previously blogged, this is the best of summers I could possibly plan and just because I don't have all the money in the world doesn't mean I can't be happy.


In other news, I believe I've been sabotaging my own health. I've been eating recklessly and not working out. I'm sure my health doesn't have much leeway for binging and that I'm a weekend of gorging away from diabetes or high blood pressure, or some other stigmatized fat people disease. Hopefully, I do something about it soon. It just is so discouraging. For the most part I'm happy, or at least content, with the way I look. But there are other times when I'm disgusted with the sight of myself naked. Like I seriously don't understand how Mark continues to have sex with this body. Luckily, such a sentiment isn't terribly common. It is frequently enough to make me gorge. Just kinda get stuck in the idea that I'll never be any thinner than I am right now.

I've made so many excuses for why I cant work out, or wont stop eating pizza. its just easier to use food as my weed.....

Don't be confused, I haven't gained a significant amount of weight. Just enough not not be able to take a decent picture.

I know I need to do something about this, cuz its not gonna just go away on its own.

Currently watching Madea's Family Reunion. I like this one, cuz its about love. I can't watch the other one, Diary of a Mad Black Women, cuz the cheating thing hits too close to home.
I guess this one should hit a little close to home since it has a lil molestation in it and some crazy family issues. Idk why, I find this one to be sweet. Maybe its the love. Its so strong in this movie.

Status update: Mark and I are great as far as I can tell.

Gotta go now, its that deep ass scene with Maya Angelou and the other old women spitting some wisdom to everybody at the reunion.

Adios!
#Prayforme

Why does forbidden fruit seem so sweet?